Eric+M's+Op-Ed+Article


 * Teenage Chemicals. UGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHH!**By Eric M.

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The Chemicals, O! the chemicals. I can’t take them. I just can’t handle the horrific power they hold over me. I’m not talking about those stupid hormones that make people hookup; I’m talking about the chemicals that irrevocably thrust you into the rollercoaster of emotions.

I come home from school, begin working on my homework, and before I know it, before I even stop to think, I’m depressed. Why do I feel so sad? I gently ask my conscious as if it would answer. My own mind blankly stares me in the face with an expression so cold, so unexplainable. Deep down inside I know, there is no answer.

As I am quietly plunging deeply into despair, I blame the chemicals; but is it really their fault? Have I done this to myself? Why is my life so meaningless? There is no reason, no cause. The dark, dark thoughts cloud my mind. No my whole being. These thoughts turn my once clear, pure soul into a dark endless pit of sorrow. Eventually, I trudge through the darkness, and I rest.

The next morning is a new day. I acquiescingly forget the previous night’s feelings in an attempt to move on. I go to school and have a wonderful day. One compliment, one piece of news, anything keeps me from returning to the previous night’s pain. I stay happy for days at a time. At the time, it seems everlasting. At the time, I can run from the hurt forever. But, always promised is the sinister pull into the deepest confines of depression.

I can’t be this finicky! I can’t be this fickle! ALL THIS INDECISION MAKES ME SCREAM!!! **THIS IS INSANITY!** I can’t take it. If I’m going to be depressed, why can’t let my chemicals just let me skulk and get over it in time? Instead these problems will simply reappear and never fall. If I’m happy, can I at least stay that way until something worth getting sad over appears? NEVER.

My chemicals never allow me to be steadfast.

P.S. Don’t take this to seem as if I’m always depressed. I love my life. Yet, I go through terrible mood changes for no reason.

Um... this sounds like you actually have depression. -Emily Park

As I pointed out, Emily, most of the time I am happy. Did you ever think I had depression before you read this?

Nope :P, but then again I don't know you that well, but I do know plenty of people that seem happy but aren't really. But hey, you know yourself the best so if you're happy then so be it :)