Sasha+P’s+OpEd+Article



Weight! My weight has been that daunting thing that has shaped who I am as a person and because of my weight and the fact that I don't accept myself, I lack self confidence, and have a harder time believing in myself. No matter what anybody said even if it were the kind words of "you are beautiful, don't think any different of yourself," they didn't mean anything to me because if I didn't think I was pretty then I wasn't. Looking back on my elementary, middle school ,and high school years I could have changed many things about myself, and one of the things could have been my weight. I was verbally and physically bullied in middle school by one individual and her possy and the one main thing she would always say was," you are so fat." Back then, even though it wasn't that long ago, I didn't think twice about if she meant it or not or if she just wanted to say it because she wanted to be the one in charge. I took everything she said personally and it went straight to my heart and my stomach. To this day I still don't feel like I am the skinniest person that I want to be and I still critique myself in every way, shape, and form, even when I take care of myself physically, it just isn't enough. I want to be the one who can wear that dress like any other girl and not feel like i have to wear a jacket to cover up my belly.

I have a pet peeve with people bad mouthing themselves and putting themselves down in different situations, and the ironic part of it all is I was and am still doing the same to myself. I hate the feeling when my friends and peers don't get the same attention because the popular, beautiful, skinny girl has taken the breath away from every guy on campus. I can't stand the fact that our weight and looks have to define us for who we are because no matter what we put into our bodies, no matter if it is Twinkies or carrot sticks, we all come from the same place and should all be treated equally.

I know that by ranting off my issue about how I perceive myself and others around me isn't going to change anything; but it is important that every guy and girl knows what it is like to feel like you aren't special enough, and that nobody should ever feel that in their lifetime. It is important for you to have the confidence in yourself to be the best you can be no matter what you look like and not let anybody tell you differently.